“I never let him carry me, he’s not really used to take care of me, because since the beginning of our relationship I’ve always taken care of myself. It’s me who always gives to others. But actually, secretly, I love to receive. It makes me feel seen, loved, something that I longed for as a child.

And then if I didn’t receive that what I need.. Because he didn’t see me; I closed my heart again, put my walls up, because that triggered me into that girl that didn’t feel seen and loved. It became a loop, how do I get out of here?”